.kristen.elizabeth.

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i know i have neglected my thoughts and negated through this....

i have a lot of updates....the main feelings that i have @ the moment....

"so long....to the old me....hello to the new ME....the BETTER ME".....

i'm working on me and starting to live....

my horoscope tommorrow is SO on point for tommorrow that imma put that in my tmail....

"people change, and so do their priorities. beating yourself up over the fact that your growing up is counterproductive. right now you know what you want and you need to listen to your instincts."

too ON POINT....

hitting the sac....will write tommorrow xoxoxo

.....YESTERDAY.....

".... had enough heartache.....and enough headache.....i've had so many ups and downs....don't know how much more i can take....but i decided....that i've CRIED all my last tears....YESTERDAY....."

today was one of those DAYS.....i just wanted to just drop to my knees and pray....and just cry "MY GOD MY GOD, what shall I DO".....you ever had one of them days where you didn't want to be bothered with anyone but GOD?? well today was one of those days....

Everytime I hear "Yesterday" by Mary Mary, it always makes me think about how today is a brand new day....and the lyrics are very fitting to how i was feeling today.....

I know that I make mistakes and I am not PERFECT but today was truly a rude awakening for myself....my mother was right....sometimes you shouldn't get close with co-workers but if that was the case, than Dr. Brown wouldn't be my mentor, Me and Cheeks wouldn't be close, etc.....

.....first level....pt. 2

have you ever had a conversation with a family member or friend and they knew you so well as you did them? lately, you know you have been enduring some inner battles YET you know that GOD is by your side and things will turn out according to his prayer and his will for your LIFE....it's some sort of growing pain or learning experience that you know that you must go through to ensure that GOD is about to bring you through a major BREAKTHROUGH....that is how i feel at this moment....

sometimes my flaws try to overshadow the good things that i have accomplished in my life thus far YET i just pray to GOD to start me over the next day with a clean slate....i have come to an understanding that GOD is truly allowing me to grow as a person and individual right now in this area or years in my LIFE....i was meant to go through these trials so that i can have great things await me along the way of this tremendous journey....

my co-worker and i have our mini-chats lately and he doesn't understand how much i appreciate his wisdom as a person. he has allowed me to open myself up a little bit and to also challenge me to strive for greater things for myself. last week, was very stressful for me. from the outside looking in, you would have thought i was throwing in the towel...when that clearly wasn't the case....i was simply disguisted with how i was living my LIFE and not using the TALENTS that GOD had given me....i was more so ashamed of myself at one point but then I realized that GOD is a forgiving GOD and he LOVES all of his children.....he sent JESUS to die on the cross for our sins....I OWE him so much i don't even know where to begin...but now, at 10:23pm, I realize where the beginning is...

so many layers to me as a person but its time to start peeling them so that i may get to the root and the core so i may understand myself a little bit better....it's time to be completely honest and truthful with myself...

GOD, i thank YOU for giving me the opportunity to be on this side this morning....please strengthen me and keep me encouraged for I know that throughout all of these things, THE BREAKTHROUGH is simply around the corner for greater things to occur in my life right now...thank you for the TRUE people you have put in my life and continue to show ME the things that I need to learn.

so as i close out the weblog for the night, the one thing that i have come to understand has a tremendous impact and wonderful outlook tommorrow.....GOD is a GOD of second chances...and i believe this is TRULY the REAL beginning for things to start turning around for me and gaining priority for i do NOT want to let GOD down....

xoxoxoxoxo

midnite...

"midnight is the only time....that i hear from you....i wish you'd call me when your skies are blue" ~GOD

GOD, forgive me.....for today, i have cheated...not on anyone but myself....please instill in me truth and show me the WAY.....for i know the plans that you have for me are GREAT and i can't see them at the moment....show me who i REALLY am in YOU.....

let today be wiped out...and tommorrow be a clean slate for me....allow your grace and mercy to work things out for my favor.....

forever, i am your child....

.....first level....

......GOD, today taught me A L O T of things today..and i understand the lessons that you are trying to portray....

this is the first time i am coming in here, humbling myself, being honest with myself about things and maybe in the end, it will truly make me feel better and make me GROW as a person....

there are many things that i have to work on right now in my life....yet, i feel like i am an onion unlayering the first layer and opening up myself a little bit to people.....

i have a significant problem going to sleep @ night in conjunction with being ON TIME...i have a tendacy to stay out late @ night or going to the gym with my cousin's late at night.....knowing that i have to be or appear to work between 8:00am - 9:30am....sometimes i don't TRUTHFULLY get to work until 10:30am or 11:00am...sometimes 12....to me and to GOD, that is UNACCEPTABLE.....I have another problem......COMMUNICATION....i can't seem to figure out the reason why that is SUCH a BIG problem for ME.....for the most part, I know it is a major function for me as an adult....so that is something i need to work out.....

I really need to step my GAME UP in my areas of my life (FINANCIALLY - DEALING WITH MONEY, GRAD SCHOOL - It's NOT a GAME, HONESTY - BEING "TRUTHFUL" in all aspects, SELF-APPEARANCE - have a sense of pride, COMMITTMENT - sticking to things i say i will do)....

in all honesty right now, i truly feel lie an onion.....tommorrow begins the 4 serious day of my DIET but since my fast, i feel like in all actuality, I WILL BE OK....i just pray that GOD works things out for me how they SHOULD be.....

I pray my TAX RETURNS comes back and that my mother helps me out....

....GOD, I just pray that you allow me to CHANGE and GROW each day.....PLEASE just keep my HUMBLE and close to you.....this is my prayer....AMEN....

g'nite all xoxoxoxoxo

randomness....

no thoughts needed....just typing str8t from the heart....

well, saturday is almost here.....it will be one week since we have burried my Nana....yet i can STILL feel her presence....saturday is also the big blackout party.....in a sense, I wish I would have planned better for my hair appointment...i should have gotten a weave put in but who knows....i should have prepare better but GOD will allow for things to be fine....just have alot of calls to make and such....

i am sitting here listening to "Note to God" by Jojo....she has some good points as well.....there are so many things that I yearn and I want to ask God....i know that GOD has alot of GREAT things in store for me in my life and I can't wait to venture into them but for the moment, I will be patient and just head his call and will...i know that sometimes I don't always turn to him but i should...

signed up for a new gym membership....and i must admit, i did right by that.....at the moments, it is all about newness....and creating and forming new things.....gotta get it together....

i'm tired....ttyl xoxox

v'day; the true meaning behind it....

Good Evening to all the L O V E L Y people of the weblog community.....

I hope that you all are having a wonderful day thus far....

here's my thought for the day.....

Many consumers are eager and are always awaiting this day based on what profits they might make....they know that the personal gain (depending on what products they service) will show for themselves BUT they don't realize that although Valentine's day was geared in history towards cupid that G O D is L O V E and he is the ORIGINATOR of it.....

In the book of 1st Corinthians, Paul writes about his spiritual gifts and L O V E is a spiritual gift that is embedded in the hearts of all MAN KIND.....Chapter 13 verse 13 states "and now abideth FAITH, HOPE, LOVE, these three; but the greatest of these is L O V E".....that is a powerful message to share with his people yet it makes an imprint on the inner linings of my heart....
Keep in mind today that GOD is the one who demonstrated L O V E to each one of us so we can share and pass it on to other's like a domino effect.....

Today, I am planning on celebrating myself and embracing my inner spirit and what GOD has shown and taught me about L O V E so that I may make it applicable to my L I F E on an everyday basis....today, i have done somethings that I feel where applicable and were a stumbling block on my way towards transformation that GOD has ordained for my life @ the moment...entering a breakthrough is an interesting place to be especially me being 25 years old now...i have more responsibilities and more expectations for myself....so now, it is FINALLY time to live UP to them...

i have decided to share this with you ALL because i think that sometimes GOD uses people to get his word OUT there yanno....so i will be obedient....in all honesty, i could care less if you read this...as long as I KNOW for ME that this is what GOD has called for me personally, than this is all that matters....

For the Singletons (like myself today), rejoice and celebrate YOU....Today, I made a vow and committment SOLELY to MYSELF...@ the moment, I have SOOOO many things on my PLATE and I want to continue to be focused on things like I was before...I feel as though I lost that part of me but I received a reality check....I will continue to CHERISH and celebrate MYSELFspring CLEANING everyday....things as of yesterday are of the past... is definitely in affect (meaning people of negativity or not motivated or issues of my past have GOT to GO!!) and i plan to celebrate and do things for Kristen from NOW ON....I am my OWN focus and when GOD is ready to send me someone, he shall....but right now I am focused on getting my road map together so i can make an impact on the world....trust me, I will....

For the Couples, continue to share with your partner the L O V E that you have for one another....to have someone that you admire, cherish, love, and care for in your midst is an amazing thing and people envy that (especially if there situation isn't the greatest)....remember that you 2 are there for ONE ANOTHER....think about the levels that you want your L O V E and relationship to go....you should be celebrating your L O V E and relationship ALL YEAR LONG....

have a blessed day xoxoxo

~kristen.elizabeth

P.S. - my First & Middle Name and also my House Name are TRUE DEFINITIONS....GOD must have had a plan when he created and named me eh ;).....*muah*