have you ever had a conversation with a family member or friend and they knew you so well as you did them? lately, you know you have been enduring some inner battles YET you know that GOD is by your side and things will turn out according to his prayer and his will for your LIFE....it's some sort of growing pain or learning experience that you know that you must go through to ensure that GOD is about to bring you through a major BREAKTHROUGH....that is how i feel at this moment....
sometimes my flaws try to overshadow the good things that i have accomplished in my life thus far YET i just pray to GOD to start me over the next day with a clean slate....i have come to an understanding that GOD is truly allowing me to grow as a person and individual right now in this area or years in my LIFE....i was meant to go through these trials so that i can have great things await me along the way of this tremendous journey....
my co-worker and i have our mini-chats lately and he doesn't understand how much i appreciate his wisdom as a person. he has allowed me to open myself up a little bit and to also challenge me to strive for greater things for myself. last week, was very stressful for me. from the outside looking in, you would have thought i was throwing in the towel...when that clearly wasn't the case....i was simply disguisted with how i was living my LIFE and not using the TALENTS that GOD had given me....i was more so ashamed of myself at one point but then I realized that GOD is a forgiving GOD and he LOVES all of his children.....he sent JESUS to die on the cross for our sins....I OWE him so much i don't even know where to begin...but now, at 10:23pm, I realize where the beginning is...
so many layers to me as a person but its time to start peeling them so that i may get to the root and the core so i may understand myself a little bit better....it's time to be completely honest and truthful with myself...
GOD, i thank YOU for giving me the opportunity to be on this side this morning....please strengthen me and keep me encouraged for I know that throughout all of these things, THE BREAKTHROUGH is simply around the corner for greater things to occur in my life right now...thank you for the TRUE people you have put in my life and continue to show ME the things that I need to learn.
so as i close out the weblog for the night, the one thing that i have come to understand has a tremendous impact and wonderful outlook tommorrow.....GOD is a GOD of second chances...and i believe this is TRULY the REAL beginning for things to start turning around for me and gaining priority for i do NOT want to let GOD down....
xoxoxoxoxo
